With a gesture, a look, a touch?
How is it I never realised I hurt you so very much?
I do not ask for forgiveness
A comfort I'll never deserve
I merely want to let you know
But I cannot find the nerve to finally confront you.
To face you.
To look you in the eye.
To face your wrath, your apathy.
Too terrified to try.
You called me selfish, I turned away.
I knew I was selfish.
I had played with your emotions too well.
I never knew we will get so deep like this.
Betraying and deceiving you...
Am not a player tho.
But things just happened that way.
Would this confession torture you?
Or have you longed to hear?
To hear those two forbidden words.
To vanguish all the pain. To understand my dearest wish.
I do know I erred irrevocably.
For that I apologise.